Tsoness's blog

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The original purpose for this account was for me to document what was happening to me spiritually because I sensed that these are great and wonderful times that I will need to someday come back to and trace my walk. I sense that I am going through a phase of 'becoming' that is going to set a tone for the rest of my life. I need to remember events as they happened. As a result, I find it highly important to be totally honest.

This blog is not really for people, I actually do not care if even one soul never reads it. It is more like my diary with God. I feel like God is reading it (and helping me write it).

It is unfortunate that I have actually missed an opportunity to document a few other  posts because life just became so busy busy. So, those things that I take too long to record, I will just mention briefly. If I go into too much detail, I might just start making things up. That has to be avoided.

Anyway, that's that.

I dont know why I felt a need to explain ;-\

 

 

How its goin lately

update

I had a session with my pastor, who of course is my mentor. She is particularly my mentor because she is called in a  Prophet office and so am I. She is very far ahead of me. I just kinda came back from backsliding. Anyway, the lesson was on Love. She was explaining to me how important love is in exercising any spiritual gift.  I like how God confirms things. I am in a middle of a 40-day period I was told to have. During this 40-day period, I am to meditate on the fruit of The Spirit which essentially is love summed-up (while eating just raw food).

Apparently there are 5 people in my life I have withheld 'love' from and need to start exercising it. My suspicion is as follows:

 - My brother and my dad
 - Chad
 - Nicole (my boss)
 - Tim
 - Nkuli
 - Loyiso (dont think so but maybe)
 - Motseki
 - Kefilwe
 - Tshireletso

I have to figure out which 5 of the above are the people that were specifically mentioned.

The preaching on Sunday also emphasised on 'Entering God's rest'
It made me realise how I have trying by y own strenghth to 'make spiritual things work'. It has been as if I am trying to twist The Holy Spirit's arm to do things through me, especially when 'things' have not been happening. That is dangerous because then I might end up creating scenarios that are not there and mistaken them as spiritual manifestations. You sort of become a miracle chaser instead of a God chaser. That is how some cults start.

I need more time with God. I need to spend time with Him and just fellowship with Him more. I need to know His voice even more. I need to know and experince His character so that I do not become tricked by a devil posing as an angel of light.

I need you more and more oh Lord
Make me over again please!

Sunday Service 01 Feb

growth@hand

I mark this day.

Today is the day that I begin my 40-day purification process. Based on arguments of what a fast is or is not, I will avoid calling it a fast. What I am doing though, could have been a fast f I was not working and  starting a variety of projects during this period.

I am to eat only raw food for 40-days (no salt, no sugar, no condiments). It is a time for prayer and separating myself for God. I am not separating myself from people or regular activities. I am to live my life as normal, just a change of diet, more prayer and meditation of the Fruit of The spirit. When I get out of line (walk out of love) I need to right my wrongs as quickly as possible. This is a period where I need to humble myself and let God teach me how to relate to other human beings. The fruit of The Spirit must manifest in me so that the gifts of The Spirit can flow from Him through me in the way the He wants. Love comes first before the gifts. Love is the fulfillment of the law. I want to be in right standing with God.

The service today was amazing. From the first 'praise' songs there was a magnificent presence of The Holy Spirit. It did not take long before people were praying in the spirit and prophecies proclaimed. Our pastor almost did not preach because we were lost in the spirit for so long. It was so awesome! I saw visions, I got a personal prophecy, I cant explain.

One of the most amazing things is that my 2yr9month son was there. He normally does not sit still in church, wants to cling to me, cries, etc. I have been leaving him at home on Sundays. This Sunday, I just felt urged to take him with. I then prayed to God to take control. He never cried or complained once in church. Half the time he had his hands raised, his eyes closed, occasionally clapping and mumbling something. It was amazing. We were in church for so long (probably 3.5hrs - 4.5hrs). After church, his normally anti-social self went around hugging everyone. My jaw dropped. God is amazing!

Anyway, I believe this is a beginning of something phenomenal in my life. I believe that by the end of the 40-days, I will be a transformed creature, ready to push back the darkness of our times.

During this time, I am meditating on Fruits of the spirit (http://www.spirithome.com/fruitssp.html) and my purpose for this period is being guided by the book of Haggai. It is time to rebuild the temple where the glory of God will dwell and manifest greater than it has before. I am that temple.

I can feel a  testimony coming.
God is also freeing up finances for me. I feel wealthy already. Thank you Lord God Almighty!!!!