Oh my...it has been hard. I never thought that there is so much to Christianity. I mean, I used to think that going to church and trying to stay out of trouble was pretty much the basics. If I had to go a step further, I would also witness - but that would be for browny points. Man was I wrong!
Right now, I am aware that I have been called to a Prophetic office (been aware of it for a long while). I am being trained by a wonderful woman who is very gifted and is still growing in her gift. At one point I would be seeing visions and then...nothing for a long while. This puzzles me because I am not sure if it is because of something I am doing wrong. I know however that I need to grow in love (in the Fruit of The Spirit). I think I am improving in that area though, but only experiences will tell.
Anyway, we have started all-night prayers on Fridays. We have had 3 so far. I am hoping my body will get used to the idea of not sleeping every Friday night. Thinking about it, there was a time i did not sleep Friday nights because I would be out partying. Well, this aint no partying. Prayer is a fight. I guess one needs to want something from God enough to subject oneself to non-sleep every week.
The prayers are about revival, mostly, and also about personal breakthroughs. Wonderful things have happened since the prayers - wonderful testimonies. For instance, 3 weeks ago my boss issued us with retrenchment letters that announced that 4 people out of 7 have to leave the company in 8 days. It was hectic. I did not freak out because it is God, in the first place, who told me not to leave the company beginning of the year. Added to that, my job is not my source, God is. To cut the long story short, 3 (instead of 4) people were retrenched. The one other person put back on the list is a Christian colleague. I was retained and on top of that offered majority shareholding (after my boss of course). To be honest, I thought that my boss did not consider me to be a valuable asset to the company. I was shocked. God is great!!
I can say that I have been going through a period where God is not trying to entertain me but rather to spur me on towards the real hardcore stuff of the spirit. I have been reprimanded for attitude, words, conduct, thoughts, habits, etc.
I have to grow and empower the inner man. Christ has to manifest through me. Less of me and more of Him. I need to learn humility, because love is humble and kind but not foolish.
I also need to spend more time with The Holy Spirit and with The Word. These are ways to learn to sharpen my discernment gifts. I have to put in all I can to have an intimate relationship with God - not one of pretense or works but one of love and obedience. I have to grow from one level to the next in hearing God.
Though it feels like a tough journey, it is neither by might nor by power. The Spirit of Truth is right there to make sure that things happen the way they should. All it takes is yielding. Yes...the yielding is not easy because human nature is essentially against it. The more one yields, though, is the easier it becomes.
Lord, I am Yours
Teach me :
how to submit
How to be an instrument in Your hands
How to be a vessel of honour - empty of self and ready me for your infilling
How to listen
How to love you so I can love others
How to walk with you, talk with you
How to see what you see
How to react like You would
How to manifets Christ in me the Hope of Glory
I love how You love me Lord!
As the work begun in me is being brought into completion by the Author and Finsher of my Faith!
Good tings r gwan!
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